Characters & Locations

Part 3

Amsterdam USA Italy

( Breaking Though The Simulation )

2005 - 2009

In April 2006 Loid was invited by a friend to join him in Amsterdam for a weekend.

In a small hotel room Loid had an experience that didn't have a beginning or end. The experience didn't last for minutes or hours or days... it lasted FOREVER.


Sometimes even now and just for a moment it can be felt. Loid is still inside the Infinite Melting Hotel Room in Amsterdam... and all of reality is an illusion.


Nothing was ever the same after Amsterdam.


Amsterdam

April 2006

Amsterdam
Amsterdam

Wooden Shoes

Amsterdam

Back Ally with Bird

Amsterdam

Amsterdam canal with street art

Amsterdam

Public urinal

Kevin Creed in Amsterdam

My friend who invited me to Amsterdam for the weekend

Amsterdam

House being held up by a wooden pole

Amsterdam

Hand on breast with lock between cobble stones

The Flag and Symbol of Amsterdam

The Flag and Symbol of Amsterdam

Amsterdam's "Red Light" District

Amsterdam's "Red Light" District

The Magic Mushroom Gallery in Amsterdam

The Magic Mushroom Gallery

Amsterdam Purchased Mushrooms with "Facts and Tips" 2006

Purchased Mushrooms with "Facts and Tips"

Loid Larson insideThe Infinite Melting Hotel Room in Amsterdam
Loid Larson insideThe Infinite Melting Hotel Room in Amsterdam

Loid was 34 years old and had never tried any psychedelic or mind altering drug in his life up to that point and rarely even drank alcohol. Nothing that he had read on the subject of psychedelics or The Psychedelic Experience before the trip to Amsterdam could have prepared him for what happened in that hotel room. He imagined that the mushrooms would make him see beautiful patterns and colors that would be pleasant and inspiring. Loid did not comprehend how completely unprepared he was for the approaching apocalyptic experience of Ego Death. He could not have known that the next 10 hours (Earth Time) would irreversibly and completely change his life forever!

Loid Larson insideThe Infinite Melting Hotel Room in Amsterdam



New York

2005 - 2006

New York, Manhattan by Loid Larson

Manhattan 4 Years After 9/11

Friend Dancing at a Manhattan Nightclub

Friends Dancing at a Manhattan Nightclub

Loid In Wonderland - Central Park, New York

Loid In Wonderland - Central Park, New York

Like any normal day until the chest pains began

38 years old and recovering from his Heart Attack

Recovering in a hospital in Manhattan

Circola della Domenica with Loid Larson, Giovanni Casadei, Jacob Bear & Cristina

Circola della Domenica

Subway at Christopher Street in Greenwich Village

Circola della Domenica with Loid Larson, Giovanni Casadei, Jacob Bear & Cristina

GO HOME TOURISTS

New York, Manhattan Night

Can almost see the hospital in The Village where he died in front of Loid.

It was only a moment for his boyfriend... he took no notice... but for Loid, the trauma would forever trap his soul in a very specific moment in time.


California Arizona

2005 - 2006

America in Iraq

America in Iraq. War protest on the beach of Santa Monica, California

A cross for every dead American in the Iraq war, War protest on the beach of Santa Monica, California

Top of Runyon Canyon, Los Angeles

Loid's Boss's 2nd Exhibition in Los Angeles

LIGHTRAY

Loid's best friend in Los Angeles calling Gio in Italy

Circola della Domenica

Giovanni Casadei & Oscar Ibarra

Wiggin Out

Friends at a Circle K in Phoenix

The first time. September 2006 Phoenix

Los Angeles Sunset


Rimini, Italy

2007 - 2009

After wandering the Earth most of his adult life, never staying in one place for more than a couple years, the 24th floor of the Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini) in Italy was to become Loid's 'permanent' home...

Rimini, Italy by Loid Larson

View of Rimini, Italy from the balcony of Loid and his boyfriend's new home. ( To the right side is the 2000 year old Roman Tiberius Bridge )

Loid had been living with his italian boyfriend though most of the 2000s in Italy as an illegal alien by overstaying his tourist visa a month or two each year without incident. It did however began to complicate and intensify his lifelong struggle with paranoia. Since highschool his oldest friend would always call him, "Paranoid Loid".

Home renovation in progress on the 24th floor of the Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini)

Another Brick Off The Wall

Rehearsing something. Always something.

Raised platform complete

Loid Larson & Giovanni Casadei at Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini)

On the Balcony above Rimini

In 2007, after already overstaying his tourist visa by a whole year, Loid and his Itlainan boyfriend bought a condominium on the 24th floor of the Grattacielo di Rimini, Italy (The Skyscraper of Rimini). This place in the sky had southern facing windows overlooking the beach and Adriatic Sea. The large balcony faced west overlooking the Roman and Medival town of Rimini, Italy. Rimini is one of a few cities along a couple miles of coastline famous for summer beach vacations and famous restaurants and nightclubs.

24th Floor above Rimini, Italy was the home of Giovanni Casadei & Loid Larson

Home Restoration Complete. Even then it seemed like a dream. Now it seems completely unreal.

Loid's desk in his studio on the 24th floor of the Skyscraper of Rimini. Gustav Klimt inspired acrylic on wood board.

Picnic above Rimini

The LIVING ROOM

Giovanni Casadei and Loid Larson

In the Skyscraper elevator

TAO was the best cat in the whole world

Night view from the balcony on the 24th floor of the Skyscraper of Rimini with 2000 year old Roman Tibris Bridge by Loid Larson

Night view from the balcony on the 24th floor of the Skyscraper of Rimini with 2000 year old Roman Tiberius Bridge

There was always hope that gay marriage would someday solve both their immigration problems. Until then Loid had painted himself into a corner and there seemed no way out that did not leave a mess. To go though airport customs in Italy, where his passport would show the length he had overstayed his visa, could well end in deportation without the possibility to ever reentering Italy again. Or to stay in Italy illegally would mean living under constant threat of also being deported. In Italy when police pull your car over for a routine check everyone inside the car must get out and present their Identifications to ether the regular police or the militarily police. Every time Loid left his home in Italy and ventured outside he suffered from the constant paranoid fear of being deported and loosing everything.

An Italian Psychologist

Loid's Italian Psychologist

An Italian Psychologist Above Rimini

Another Italian Psychologist Above Rimini

In your 30s all your friends start to have babies

In your 30s all your friends start to have babies

Gio and another friend's baby

Rimini, Italy TANGO

Tango Party Above Rimini, Italy

Chris Jacobson, Chris Jay, Christopher David Jacobson

Loid's Guardian Angel

Cocoricò Nightclub in Riccione, Italy.  LaRie & Gio Dancing to the DJ set up in the woman's restroom at Cocoricò Nightclub, Riccione

LaRie & Gio Dancing to the DJ set up in the woman's restroom at Cocoricò Nightclub, Riccione

Loid's melancholy friend choosing an outfit for The Costume Party

Making a choice for The Costume Party

Rimini, Italy The Skyscraper of Rimini and Loid Larson (Grattacielo di Rimini)

The Skyscraper of Rimini and Loid (Grattacielo di Rimini)

Loid had overstayed his tourist visa for the last 4 years in Italy. Living as an illegal alien in a foreign country, under constant threat of deportation, distorted Loid's reality. The paranoia he had experienced his whole life was now amplified and made real. The very real threat of loosing everything and never being able to return to Italy caused panic attacks and psychosis. All because gay marriage was not yet recognized by ether country.

Coast of the Adriatic Sea seen from Loid's studio on the 24th floor of the Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini) at night looking south with train station below.

Coast of the Adriatic Sea seen from Loid's studio on the 24th floor of the Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini) at night looking south with train station below.

Before the New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

Guest Dancing at New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

Guests Dancing at the New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

Rimini, Italy New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

Wating for Fireworks at the window of Loid's studio. New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

Rimini, Italy

New Years Eve Party 2007/2008

2 Italian Psychologists Skyping at Loid's desk at the New Years Eve Party 2007/2008


For a month in Spring 2008, in various apartments throughout the Grattacielo di Rimini (Skyscraper of Rimini), peoples homes were transformed into stages for the SOLD OUT theatrical extravaganza CAMPANELLI "Door Bells".

The PLAYERS setting the stage in our living room

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Azzurro Polvere (Blue Dust) Photos

Preformed in front of an audience in our living room twice a night

Azzurro Polvere (Blue Dust) Video of Performance

Preformed in front of an audience in our living room twice a night


A Void of Loids

In 2008 Loid began having a series of severe Panic Attacks. The stress of the attacks began to form cracks in his relationship to everyone around him.

Tao, Giovanni Casadei and Loid Larson 2008 Grattacielo di Rimini

"L'amore Cava Dalla Carne le Bestie e le lascia libere sotto un temporalele"

( Love Carves the Flesh of the Beasts and Leaves Them Free Under a Thunderstorm )

Photo credit Chico de Luigi

THE TOWER

Skyscraper of Rimini at night as seen from the 2000 year old Tiberius Bridge ( Grattacielo di Rimini )

Loid Experiencing Zen Psychosis As THE TOWER Begins To Collapse

The Tower Tarot card

THE TOWER (Tarot Card) .--Misery, distress, indigence, adversity, calamity, disgrace, deception, ruin,. It is a card in particular of unforeseen catastrophe. Reversed: Negligence, absence, distribution, carelessness, apathy, nullity, vanity

Psychosis is an abnormal condition of the mind that results in difficulties determining what is real and what is not.

Loid's studio on the 24th floor of The Skyscraper of Rimini ( Grattacielo di Rimini )



It was during this period of Psychedelic Psychosis that Loid had a vision of the future.

That vision became the video art project:

The Technological Singularity by Loid Larson
The Technological Singularity by Loid Larson
The Technological Singularity



Loid and The Technological Singularity in his studio on the 24th floor of THE TOWER / Skyscraper of Rimini ( Grattacielo di Rimini )

Loid's cat TAO Yawning and Yawning and Yawning

Chris Jacobson, Chris Jay, Christopher David Jacobson

Loid's oldest friend experiencing The Technological Singularity above Rimini, Italy

In Loid's studio with his Best Friend from Argentina and his cat TAO X 3

6 months after Loid's experience in Amsterdam his Italian boyfriend had a heart attack in front of him and appeared to have died while they were renting an apartment for 6 months in Greenwich Village, New York. Since then Loid had begun to exhibit symptoms of psychosis and an increase in the paranoia he had dealt with his whole life. These symptoms greatly increased during the last years in Italy living as an illegal alien on the 24th floor of a Tower on the opposite side of the planet from where he was born.

 Il fuoco di San Giuseppe  ( Saint Joseph's  Bonfire) on the beach of Rimini below THE TOWER

Il fuoco di San Giuseppe ( Saint Joseph's Bonfire) on the beach of Rimini below THE TOWER

Loid's psychologist friend recommended a therapist to help overcome the fear of being deported, getting on a plane, returning to the USA, leaving Italy, and leaving his only home. All sessions of therapy were done with the idea that taking the chance of leaving and reentering Italy legally would give Loid more options to stay permanently and become a resident of a country that had felt like home for so many years.

On The 24th Floor of THE TOWER Walking Away From It All

Video of Loid and his best friend's last Sunday together in Italy

Rimini, Italy and The Technological Singularity with Paulo Derrico & Loid Larson Roman Tiberius Bridge and the Skyscraper of Rimini ( Grattacielo di Rimini )

Loid and his best friend from Argentina saying goodbye in front of the 2000 year old Roman Tiberius Bridge and the Skyscraper of Rimini ( Grattacielo di Rimini )

24 floors above Rimini, Italy they would talk endlessly about Space and Time and about the approaching Technological Singularity,


Rimini, Italy, loid larson  Skyscraper of Rimini ( Grattacielo di Rimini )

Last view from Loid's studio window before leaving Italy forever

Rimini, ItalySeptember 2009

Some Things Are Not Meant to Be


The Technological Singularity, Credi Nel Computer, Believe in the Computer, Italian Graffiti

"Believe in the Computer"

Italian Graffiti2004

is the hypothesis that all of reality, including the Earth and the universe could be in fact an artificial simulation — for example by quantum computer simulation — indistinguishable from “true” reality. It could contain conscious minds which may or may not be fully aware that they are living inside a simulation. This is a proposed technology so advanced that it would seem realistic enough to convince its inhabitants the simulation was real.

This is quite different from the current, technologically achievable concept of virtual reality. Virtual reality is easily distinguished from the experience of actuality; participants are never in doubt about the nature of what they experience. Simulated reality, by contrast, would be hard or impossible to separate from "true" reality. There has been much debate over this topic, ranging from philosophical discourse to practical applications in computing.


CHRONOLOGY